The Ninety-Seventh.

I’m sorry for spamming gaga gifs, but really, I am so fucking excited because I am going to the Born This Way Ball tomorrow! ITS BEEN 3 MONTHS SINCE THE TICKET SALES. I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR 3 MONTHS. 3 MONTHS, K, 3 MONTHS. I AM SO EXCITED I COULD DIE ANYTIME NOW. AND ITS BEEN 3 YEARS SINCE I LAST SAW HER AT THE FAME BALL. IS THIS REAL LIFE OR IS THIS FANTASY~

ANYWAY, I spent my afternoon today queuing up for the official tour merchandise. Thank god I went today because i) the queue didn’t budge and they give priority to people who’s paying by credit card and this dude was kind enough by helping me and Edwin get our stuff by using his credit card and ii) stocks are depleting, according to the management and iii) it would be a breeze going to the show tomorrow cause we only need to queue to get in the stadium. I got myself a gaga sweater and a tour tshirt. I didn’t know what to get so I just settled for the most practical item, clothing. LOL and then after buying the merchandise, I realized we forgot to get the most important item; the tour programme. Its okay cause maybe we’re going to get more merchandise tomorrow.

Alright, its midnight and I have to attend school tomorrow for like 2.5hours after which I’m gonna go get ready for the ball. Tomorrow will be a tiring day but I know I will have so much fun. I MEAN LOOK, ITS LADY GAGA HERE. THIS IS THE ONLY THING THAT I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD SINCE LAST YEAR. OH GOD I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED, SOMEONE KILL ME ALREADY. AND AND I’M PRAYING HARD WE’LL GET TO GO BACKSTAGE TO MEET HER. LOL FATHOPE BUT STILL…

K. Goodnight. xoxo.

The Ninety-Sixth.

Its finally Friday. I’m happy because i) the week that I have been dreading is finally over and ii) I had a really awesome Friday. I should be sleeping because I am dead tired but I told myself to blog and then go to sleep. LOL at my priorities. Alright, I think this should be enough for the introductory paragraph lol okay let’s start.

I reached school early today, earlier than my Lifeskills lecturer, Ms Toh. I don’t know why but it is kinda amazing because I left my house exactly the same time like I do every single day. I’m not sure if I mentioned this before but I have a really really annoying classmate/projectmate called Alan. He’s new to the class as he is a progression direct second year student. Whatever. I’m just annoyed whenever he opens his mouth to speak because he is such an arrogant guy. Like really really arrogant. I know I’m not any better but really, its like taking annoying to a whole new level. Just because he thinks he is a know-it-all. Like you can push whatever to his face and he’ll come up with explanations and definitions and blahblahblah suck my dick lol.

So today’s lifeskills lesson was about serial killers and of course, if you know me, you’ll know that have a huge fascination with serial killers and how they attract me and stuff. Ms Toh showed us this really cool website which depicts the last meal requested by serial killers before they are executed. AND THEN OF COURSE ALAN JUST HAD TO ADD ON ABOUT HOW BLAHBLAHBLAH. I was like bitch please, lethal injection is a mixture of sedatives, muscle relaxant and an overdose of potassium. And he was like I’ve read this before blahblahblah. Oh god me typing all of this out is redundant. Just ask pretty much all of my classmates and they would agreed that they somewhat hate Alan omg.

THAT’S NOT HAPPY AT ALL, SAI. Okay, but overall I’d say this would be one of the best lifeskills I ever had because we went through serial killers and analyze their thoughts and how they changed, their inner conscious and stuff like that. Hmm, I like. Anyway, Ms Toh is also a gaga fan and she was like really really excited for me attending the ball next week. 3 MORE DAYS LEFT TO THE BTW BALL.

I had a short break with Elgin and Pius right after Lifeskills. They then went for their lesson while I rush to the BlackBox for the fashion show rehearsal. I was one of the first few people to arrive first. Paddy wasn’t there for the rehearsal because he was having a class and he doesn’t want to skip it. Meh, so there was only like five male models present and eight female ones. I don’t really care about the others though. I only care about Paddy and my own performance. Also there was this male model called Rafly who said that I shouldn’t be here because I’m too small. So I was like, I am a certified male model and I am in an agency. He can’t even walk omg. Even Carmen, the runway instructor agreed. But of course I am numb to criticisms and whatnot already. Bitch I am fabulous and haters gonna hate lol. I don’t know why but I think the male models, including me, are an awkward bunch of people. Well except for Paddy of course. :3

So we tried on the clothes, the runway formation and the sequence of the whole thing. They also include a segment where couples are paired up with each other for a walk. I ws paired up with a girl but she was kinda meh so they are still deciding on who they gonna pair me up with. I keep telling them that I should walk with Paddy considering he doesn’t have a partner yet but the girls ignored me lol. If only Paddy was there for the rehearsal. :l

I miss Paddy already. He’s been letting his hair down for the past few days but he looks cuter that way. Haha he’s always cute, well to me at least. So after the rehearsal, I got home and I resisted the temptation of falling asleep even though I’m meeting the girls and guys at about eight at night. I had a hard time deciding what to wear. I’m gonna go shopping soon cause I have so much stuff to buy. Anyway, I decided on my navy chinos, a long-sleeved white shirt, black suspenders and my boatshoes. I met the girls at Bugis at eight.

Some of the guys and girls were late so Julianna and some of the girls and me made our way to Nabins first. The rest then came one by one after that. The place was cozy and all. Ordered our share of alcohol and food. I was the only one puffing sheesha then. The booze and food were very good but the sheesha was kinda meh cause I couldn’t taste the flavour. It was like puffing pure smoke all the way. I was disappointed cause it cost a lot more than the sheesha at the other place that I frequent with my girlfriends. :l But of course I kept puffing and puffing like always cause that’s my thing. I’m able to make smoke rings already. Just like the one in the header-gif on top of this post. :3

Stayed there for about a few hours till way late into the night. Some of them had to go off and whatnot. I stayed back with Michelle, Julianna and Dzaf. Decided to go to a pub in Boat Quay for another round of booze. Reached there and we kinda walk a whole loop trying to find the pub. Ended up not getting another round of booze after all. Slacked at the nearby Macdonald’s for drinks lol after which we sat the the Singapore river bank up till one plus in the morning. Took the cab back home with Michelle and I reached at about a little to two in the morning. Today was awesome really. I had a great time. We actually planned to go clubbing but it was changed to a sheesha and booze session. Well at least I got to smoke. Oh and of course we took a whole lot of photos and instax(s). :3

Anyway, I miss my bestfriends! Probably meeting them this Sunday. Alright, I should go to sleep before I faint or die due to exhaustion already. Goodnight guys.

xoxo.

The Ninety-Fifth.

Oh wow, its been a week since I last blog. I’ve been busy lately. Busy with the usual stuff, school and whatnot. This blog will never die, just that the frequency of me posting will be lesser than last time. I’ve a lot to blog about this past week. Its midnight and I have exactly an hour to post this before I have to go to bed. :3

School’s not bad nowadays even though we have projects after projects and talks after talks omg. Its already seven weeks into the new term. I’ll say I’m coping well except for one module. My CA and I aren’t on speaking terms, still. She will only talk to me if she wants the attendance report or she wanna clarify class matters with me but whatever, I’m fine with being the insignificant class rep LOL. Anyway, on Monday we had this event that the class have been managing for two times already. Yesterday was the third time and it was good and finally I gained recognition as the floor manager cause they, ehem, finally decided to print out my name on the booklet. K. I enjoy going to school nowadays even though I am always half-dead whenever I am in school. The timetable was a breeze on Tuesday and Wednesday cause surprisingly, we only had morning lessons. I spent the afternoons sleeping though cause I am that tired.

Also, we had to present our final-year project presentation to both the course manager and section head today. Presentation was fine but our project idea kinda got rejected though because both of them said that it doesn’t relate to whatever we studied omg. Anyway, it doesn’t affect me much cause at least I know I got it done and over with. Shall take a break till next Thursday, where we would finalize on another project idea.

I did went for something that I’ve never experience before last Friday. I went for a facial. Well I received a call right after the audition on last Wednesday. The women was like saying that someone submitted/recommended me to them to try out their new facial treatment. The price was like 388dollars but I was specially given a discounted price of 38dollars. Hmm, I wanted to reject it but it would be a bad thing to do cause I was recommended LOL. So yeah, I made an appointment for it last Friday. AND GUESS WHAT? I was lost finding the place even though I was given clear directions. LOL I kept walking around the Tanjong Pagar area. I ended up being late for 15minutes but the lady was nice. Overall, I’d say the facial treatment was good and very relaxing. My face feels so smooth afterwards and I felt beautiful LOL and I couldn’t stop touching my face. Hmm, I then spent the weekends relaxing at home. :3

Oh and yes, the fashion show. It will be somewhere in the middle of July. First rehearsal tomorrow and I am excited. LOL I know it will be a little awkward being with the other models but I know I’ll do fine. Eh this is what I do best. I’m not sure if Paddy made it through the audition but I rather keep it a surprise. I rather enter the place tomorrow and find out myself haha. I heard the clothes are like really awesome looking and there’s suspenders and all. K, I shall not spoil the surprise of the show. I am very excited for this. I’m not sure if I can get hold of tickets but please inform me earlier if any of you are interested to go and watch the fashion show. Don’t worry, its rather atas~

OH AND GUESS WHAT? *hyperventilates* ITS ANOTHER FOUR MORE DAYS TO THE BORN THIS WAY BALL. I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED THAT CAPS CAN’T EVEN EXPRESS HOW EXCITED I AM OMG. I am really really excited omg. I mean, its been three years since I last saw Gaga perform live directly in front of my eyes. The Fame Ball was great but of course, she will top herself once more with this new world tour. Oh god. I really hate how some countries are banning her from performing just because of religious views blahblahblah. You can take your religion and shove it up your asses but seriously though. And then she was told that she could perform only if she censor the show LOL JOKE. You tell me, if you were to censor a gaga concert, what would you get left? An empty stage LOLOL. I rather she just cancel the show. What the fuck at the thought of censoring a gaga show. That’s like removing the spine from a human being. Religiously-biased countries aside, I am excited and its another four more days. It seems like only yesterday that I was first in line for the tickets omg and that was like way back in February. February 27th :3

I remembered how someone promised me he will go to the ball together with me. But hey, things happened and its been a long time since we last talk and I think its better this way. I don’t know. But its just that one promise. That one promise of going to the ball with me. Sigh. Promises are made to be broken anyway and I hate how I am the sort of person who remember stuff. Yeah, I remember pretty much everything that people done for me/said to me/insult me/done with me. I don’t forget things. That’s just me.

ANYWAY on a brighter note, its another four more days to the ball and I am going with a friend of mine, Edwin. I should really go to bed already. Its one in the morning and I have school tomorrow. Lesson in the morning followed by the rehearsal and then gonna go have a sheesha session in the evening/night with Julianna and the other girls/guys. :)

Alright, goodnight guys. xoxo.

The Ninety-Fourth.

Hey. School has been good lately. Yes, there’s projects to be done here and there but at this point of time, I’d say school is a breeze. No, not that I’ve come to terms with my class adviser but simply because the people in school has been nice to me. I’ve been spending time studying though I know I’m still unsure. Anyhoo, that’s not the point. I am happy and today is probably one of my best days in 2012. I shall start blogging about it now…

Wednesdays are always draggy for me just because school is at 8am all the way till 3pm. Usually I’ll be bored halfway but not today because I know I’ll get to meet Julianna at 3pm because I am auditioning for a place for her upcoming fashion show organized by her final year project group. I’m happy because I am the first person she asked to be a model for and also because I know she asked Paddy as well. (Paddy is Padirac’s nickname that I gave though he prefers to be called by his middle name, Max, which is short for Maxime.)

So after lesson ended, I rushed to the venue. I came, hugged Julianna cause I haven’t seen her in a while and sat down to rest for a bit. I was briefed and then I got ready to be cast. I was asked to describe myself in 3 words. Naturally I said,”Hot, cute and sexy.” I’d say it was a breeze walking and answering their questions. I mean come on, this is like one of my forte. Something I believe that I’m finally good at. After that, I decided to stay on cause I told Julianna the day before that I wanna meet Paddy. Julianna and the rest of the hospitality girls were very nice to me. People come and go for their turn up till an hour later when Paddy finally text saying that he would be there in 15minutes time. LOL and then and then Julianna straight away gave me her pedo face and then asked me to get ready LOL. I waited by the door okay LOL cause I was that ready to meet Paddy. I like how the girls are very very outspoken and loud and I kinda regret not taking up Hospitality instead of Engineering. Julianna said her class would be golden if I were in her class. I find that somewhat true anyway cause hospitality, I think, suits me more than engineering. But its okay cause I’m only left with like a year more to go.

I don’t know why but his 15minutes was more like 30minutes LOL. I was anticipating this moment very very much. He then knocked on the door and I calmly said,”Oh my god, hi!” but he looked very blur and didn’t reply me. -__- But he then smiled at me. Eye contact, like always. I died. He rest for awhile at the seat behind me and kept talking to the girls about how he went to the wrong place, how tired he was, oh you know those typical stuff French people would ask. K sorry I was trying to be funny over here. LMAO. He also answered two calls and he spoke in French and Chinese for the other one. Omg at the way he spoke French. :O

Alright so he finally got to the front and got ready for his audition. He seemed nervous, like really nervous. Eye contact, like always. Oh and the 3words he used to describe himself was,”Lazy, Boring and Cool.” LOL I died. He was then asked to walk but he kept saying he was nervous and stuff and that he’s not used to walking in front of people he doesn’t know(LOL lame excuse). Julianna then said I should introduce myself to him just so he would feel better so I said,”Hi I’m Sai, 2nd year electrical engineering student. I watched you last Thursday during the model competition. You were good, I like your walk.” AND THEN AND THEN HE SAID,”HI HANDSOME!” AND HE WINKED AT ME.

Okay omg I died a million times. The person who I liked since last year + the one who I’ve been having eye contact with everyday said that to me on the very first time we talked. I swear I could have like hug him right there. He then talked about how he didn’t do well for the competition, how he suck so bad and whatnot. Very cute omg but I told him I liked how he walked last Thursday and how he dressed himself. Julianna then interfered saying,”Ah angkat buah dia lagi.” omgomgomg. So after being all cute, he was still nervous surprisingly and then he said,”Okay, I’ll walk only if he walk with me, I’ll just follow him.” So of course I walk beside him and at that very moment, I swear it feels like he was my…boyfriend. He then asked,”Would Sai be there? Cause I’ll only be there if Sai’s there.” I died omg. Of course Julianna told him that I’m already a model for the show. He smiled after hearing it omg.

He could have left already but he said he wanted to stay back for a bit. We just started to talk about random stuff, keeping eye contact. Seriously, he has gorgeous eyes. I’m not kidding. I still can’t believe the fact that he was actually sitting directly in front of me, talking to me. And then he told me about how 3 guys, who he doesn’t know at all, text him and then I gave him my usual meh face and then he stopped talking about it. LOL I think he knows I was kinda jealous. He then left about 10minutes before me, Julianna and the other girls left school. Really I think he knows I like him, I don’t know, but throughout the whole of today’s audition, he kept looking at me and his face was kinda…strange. I can’t tell what he’s thinking, whether its good or bad but there’s just something about the way he looked at me all the time.

I like him to be honest. I told both Julianna and Yijing about it and they both said I should take it slow. Yijing said I should calm myself down and take it slow just so I won’t mess things up. I know good things happens to those who wait, so right now I am waiting because I know it will be worth it. I’ll probably see him in school tomorrow, like always and I’m gonna say Hi this time. I mean, the signs are pretty obvious isn’t it? How we make eye contact everyday, the way he looks at me, how he doesn’t get bothered when I talked about stuff with him, how he talks to me and of course the first thing he ever said to me. I really hope the girls would let him through this fashion show because if he’s through, I’ll get to spend time with him during the rehearsals and whatnot. I like you, Paddy. Really. :3

Goodnight, xoxo.

The Ninety-Third.

Hey. I actually planned to blog yesterday but I reached home at about 1.30am and I was very very tired. Anyway, I’ve come to a decision that I will not update this blog of mine like everyday anymore. Depends really. Depends on whether there’s any content to blog about, my current mood and of course the amount of energy that I have left every night after the usual rigours during the day.

Ahh let’s blog about yesterday first. Got done with school fast; typical Fridays. Lessons was easy and a breeze through except the fact that Farid was annoying the hell out of me because he and some of the guys saw the way I spazzed over Padirac during the modelling competition. Oh and for the first time ever since the start of school, I didn’t see Padirac yesterday. There’s two option to conclude this sheer mystery. Its either i) he was too tired because of the competition thus skipping school the next day or ii) he was in school just that the both of us wasn’t lucky enough to see each other. Hmm. I don’t know why but I kinda miss him LOL. Its okay, I’ll get to see him next week anyway both in school and the audition. Went to the salon below my house straight after school to get my hair done. The only difference with yesterday’s haircut is the fact that I asked the hairdresser to shave my sides all the way, yes, I’m bald/skin-headed on the sides now but yeah, still the same hairstyle, just have to backcomb it. I love my hair very very much. :3

Went out to the airport at about 4pm. As usual, I spent my afternoon at Starbucks over a venti green tea latte. Liyana only came at about 8pm. She kinda fetched me from Starbucks and then brought me to BurgerKing. Okay so two of her classmates were already there… Farahhin only came in later. So did Hafirah. Spent most of the night at BurgerKing afterwhich we went to Terminal One just so Liyana could check in. It was kinda sad but it will only be for about two weeks. I’ll manage. It was already midnight by then so me and the girls kinda rush for the last bus. By the time I reached Yishun, it was already 1am so there wasn’t any feeder bus service for me anymore so I walked slowly home. It was nice and rather peaceful. Walking slowly in the middle of the night. :)

Ah. Today was good. I managed to get a decent sleep because I went straight to sleep once I reached home yesterday(of course I did the necessary things like taking a shower + tumblr etc) Mom woke me up rather early today and forced me to get ready cause it’s my cousin’s wedding today! I didn’t get much time to dress well cause my dad was kinda rushing so I just pull on my navy chinos, skate shirt, boatshoes and dreamcatcher necklace. I didn’t even have time to do my hair so I just grab an amount of hairclay and dashed out. LOL I went out of the house looking like a madman. Flagged down a cab and then I finally did my hair in the cab though the driver kept looking at me LOL. Reached the place in Tampines and then… it got kinda awkward for me cause its been a long time since I last saw my cousins and whatnot. I almost died when I saw the groom(my cousin) cause he was fair-skinned and he looks like my ex. lolmyexlol. The bride’s a Japanese though and she looks good. The weather was terrible today so I just sat down at some seats beside my brother and my parents and then we just randomly talk about stuff and then I just found out today that my late maternal grandfather had seven wives lol. He had a Japanese wife lol who died giving birth to an uncle who I’ve never even heard of. I think I have a rather interesting heritage because my late paternal grandfather is a British Subject lol. LOL at my grandfathers but seriously though…kinda cool. And lol at the ridiculous number of lols in the past few sentences.

I left the wedding earlier just because I’m meeting nzgskp later in the evening because we are to attend the SS Show at Mediacorp studios. Slept through the train ride. Met them at Admiralty where we had our early dinner. I regret buying the double down because it was disgusting. Seriously who the hell invented that idea omg. The good thing about my bestfriends and I is that we always have an unlimited number of free stuff. LOLIAMSUCHAFREELOADERLOL. Jiahui had a large amount of tickets and I really don’t wanna waste the tickets so I just went for it. I mean, really, anything just so I can spend time with my friends. Took the free bus ride to Mediacorp~

We were given carnations the moment we stepped into the studio. Overall, the show was good. We were seated at the front row and the show was live on television and so naturally, the cameras would focus more on the front row seats. Due to that lol, our faces kept appearing from the start of the show till the very end. Yes, all of us. And yes, it was our faces all the time. Got super high just because of it and of course our twitter timeline and notifications got flooded by people who saw us on television. Really worth the time and I’m on national television. I shall cross this out of my bucket list; to appear on national television. Even though we’re just a part of the audience, it was still a good experience even though the show was kind meh LOL. LOLWEAREFAMOUSBITCHESLOL. Took the free bus back to Admiralty afterwards and then we just slack at Macdonald’s till midnight. Spammed our group chat on Whatsapp with our photos. All unglam and unnecessary shots. It was fun. Took the last train home but this time round, there was still feeder bus services available for me so yeah, I took the bus home. Came home to find my nephew sleeping on my bed. -___-

Maybe I’ll do a visual blogpost or something tomorrow.

Goodnight. xoxo